It took me years to understand myself. People rejected me at a very young age. Sure I have scars like any other my age, but I’m also differently wired.
When People Disgust Me
Confession of a misanthrope artist, are you ready for it? Let’s dive in! At a young age, I couldn’t stand how people close to me, except for my grandpa, would remove a stain from my face or simply wash my hands. I did not like the contact. As I grew older, I thought it was merely a case of germaphobia.
But, I understood that it wasn’t just the passing of germs and bacteria but the unnecessary touch. I couldn’t process why someone would do that as I would prefer learning and mimicking, so I could do it myself.
Have you ever wonder about the psychological state of Batman’s villains? I do. So, let’s dive in and learn more!
The Beginning Of Harvey Dent
Here it goes for the Harvey Dent secret mental file! In the #66 of the Detective Comics titles, Harvey “Apollo” Kent appeared first. It was only sometime later that his name changed to Dent. This was to avoid confusion with Superman’s alter ego, Clark Kent.
In the 40s, Harvey made only a few appearances and fewer in the 50s. The goal was to make Batman a more joyful superhero along with his villain gallery, and Harvey Dent dropped out. However, in the 70s, Dennis O’Neil decided it was time for Two-Face to make a comeback and made sure he would become a villain worthy of Batman’s rogue gallery.
A year or so ago, I wrote an article about people that can reveal themselves as toxic in one’s life. It is hard to draw a line between ourselves and others we consider friends. Then this happened to me.
*** UPDATES: After the results of 23andMe I am only 2.9% Native American on my paternal side. Meaning my grandfather’s lineage is solely French and Spaniard resulting in an error that occurred fifty years ago having his family believe they were Mohawk. But, this doesn’t change any of my views on the matter of defending Native American rights. ***
Circles of Hell
I do not enjoy talking about myself or my life. I like to keep my privacy within my house walls and a relatively tight circle of people. It is hard for me to accept what my life became and where I am heading. When blood is thinner than water it hurts my very life.
With that said, and this is where it gets trickier for me. I do not believe in a “higher purpose” or that “everything happens for a reason.” I do not think we are born with a predestined path to follow.
“You will never make it. You are not good enough. Your art is not what any industry is looking for.” Those were the words of my college Art Design class teacher.
It Starts With A BANG!
I grew up in the art world. There was nothing I wanted to do in life other than being part of the artistic world. I worked hard to understand human behavior as well as the surroundings.
I developed a very observant eye, and my attention to detail is overly developed. I leave nothing to chance, which might not be because of a variety of art courses I took. It might be because of my OCD and chronic anxiety.